The Shadow Within Our Spirit

My experience with my spiritual awakening was that spirituality was far from being just love and light. The beginning stages of a spiritual awakening it was dark, sorrow and I thought I was losing my mind; that I was going 'crazy'. I learnt that spirituality had its shadows and we also had a shadow.

At the time I was unpacking my toxic behaviours, my narcissism, my co-dependency and the lack of love for myself. I was healing the part of myself that resonated with all the trauma responses that manifested themselves as my 'personality traits'. This was when I stumbled upon the famous psychoanalyst and psychologist Carl Jung. He was one of the grandfathers of psychology and his work incorporated spirituality into it, which is why I resonate with his work so much.

He theorised the term Shadow Self was an aspect of us that was located in our subconscious and was formed due to the experiences of pain, rejection and trauma. For me this makes sense, we tend to suppress the unpleasant memories we have which are attached with heavy emotions. Where we were conditioned to be a certain way from our family and social dynamics, or else we will not be accepted, loved or succeed in life.

Our shadow is not evil or bad, sometimes we hide gifts, talents and unique personality traits because we experienced rejection, which creates this internalisation of shame and guilt. Our shadow is something not to fear, as it's the fragment of our-self that desires and craves love and acceptance.

Personally, shadow healing has been one of the most profound and empowering types of healing I've done. This was where I learnt to be honest, take accountability, ground myself in my authenticity and self-worth. Realising that our worth and sense of love is something we can cultivate from within. It's not something we can buy online or look for in other people, as they don't define it for us.

With our shadow also comes light. When doing shadow healing it's important to bring the light towards those aspects of our self. To embrace our shadow, we have to learn to give our self-compassion, kindness, acceptance and forgiveness. That the wounds, traumas and rejections we experienced do not define our future or where we are heading.

Spirituality for me has given me closure for my childhood abuse, it's brought me healing knowing that all the pain I went through wasn't for nothing. That now I have cultivated this sense of love, empowerment and wholeness which was by transmuting my pain and traumas.

Having healed aspects of myself, which put me in a position to share and spread the wisdom and healing I have found. Knowing that I am an example to those who might feel as they are lost and their pain defines them because, in reality, it doesn't. This wasn't done just with love and light. This was done by embracing my shadow; the most wounded, darkest and deepest part of myself.

Trusting our process of healing and our spirituality is key. The thing is with spirituality, no two spirits are the same. We might resonate with the person across us, although might not resonate with the person next to us. It doesn't make anyone less spiritual, we are all on our journey; a journey to find what is fulfilling for us, seeking our purpose and reasons we get up in the morning and continue with our lives.

Realising that we all have beauty, light and peace that lives within us and we are simultaneously flawed, imperfect and shadow beings. The gem about the human consciousness is that we were given free will; the free will to choose what we give our attention and energy towards and what we let go of.

The foundation of spirituality is freedom and while our past wounds and traumas still linger around us that sense of freedom isn't there. That is why healing and spirituality go hand in hand. Having to face our darkest and painful experiences and memories have so much power and light within them. The light of compassion, resilience, strength, bravery and courage; those light lives within our darkness and the wisdom we hold from our experiences are the treasures we will not find anywhere else.

When we are put on a path to look within and heal, don't turn away from it, don't drink it away, escape or run from it. Look at it in the eyes, just like the other times you looked at your challenges and hurdles. The times you thought you couldn't overcome them, although you did. Life cannot be rainbows and sunshine at all times. Life has polarities all around us, which includes our experiences. This is why our hard times are there as those are the time we practice our free will, to continue and cultivate more resilience, courage and strength.

Overcoming our challenges and hurdles is always worth it, in the present moment it might not seem like it, although when we get to the rewards of it all, we are grateful we continued and persevered.

By: Merichel Sanchez

Embracing our spirit includes the shadow, don't turn this aspect of our self away as we'll go on cyles to only go back and reclaim it.

Trusting that we all go through cycles and experiences not to break us but to build us to who we truly are meant to be. Inner work is challenging, tiring and at times sh*tty, although the rewards of finding the love within and our authentic self is something we can not buy or will ever find outside of our-self.

To embrace the spirit, we much heal what broke our spirit in the first place. Spirituality has always had shadows and it is not the time to ignore them, it's the time to embrace them and show them the light.

Be Kinder, Less Critical

The Dark Night Of The Soul

This part of our ascension journey and spiritual awakening isn’t a bad thing. This stage is actually what we experience before having an awakening. It’s where we question everything about our self and everything else around us. When we begin to seek for the meaning and answer to what we are going here, who we truly are and why we went through certain things.

The dark night of the soul isn’t something we go through ones, it’s a stage that is needed; as it’s a stage where we begin to reevaluate, reflect and see what needed changing. It’s where we bring further light to fragments of our self that needs healing.

The first few dark nights might feel heavy and darker in a sense, although, it does it lighter the more we go through it. It’s not as dark or foggy as it was in the beginning; as we have gone through enough of it to know it serves a purpose and that this stage is only temporary.

It’s the darkness before the rebirth.

We do not only go through one rebirth during our awakening, we go through many. It’s not limited to just one, it just depends on each individual’s soul journey and lessons they came here to do and learn.

The dark night of the soul isn’t a place we stay and create a home. It’s where we shine our light and brighten up that aspect of our self. It’s reclaiming and acknowledging a fragment of our self. It’s not a time to begin to settle in that space. Take a rest and observe what needs to be acknowledged and then light that sucker up, and then use that light to go back up again; ascend that fragment of our self towards our higher self.

The light we use is the tools of compassion, empathy, kindness, understanding, love, nurture, forgiveness, etc. Using our own discernment to figure which tools we need to use to light up the dark night of our soul. These are the same tools we use to ascend our shadow and the fragments we have uncovered; these are the same tools we use when we are healing.

As we continue to change and reconstruct the self-limiting belief and fear-based foundation to a more compassionate, nurturing and love base beliefs we continue to heal, ascend and reclaim fragments of our self. -

(A channelled artwork and messages about Shadow Work and ascending the Shadow Self: “Ascending The Shadow”)

Be Kinder, Less Critical

“Dark Night Of The Soul by: Merichel S”

Leaping Into The Soul

Trauma Healing And Spirituality:

Spiritual awakening is not glamorous and it put us in a position where we have to learn how to let go. To learn to let go, we have to learn to let go of control. We all have experiences where we were unable to let go and wanted to control a situation or someone.

This unconscious desire to want to control everything and everyone is rooted in our childhood. There was a time where we felt powerless and to feel safe or survive, we have to learn to grasp on things we can control. This becomes an unconscious patterning that we bring into our adulthood and not realising that we still carry and play out from those traumatic events and circumstances.

What occurred to us during the childhood/upbringing that made us feel unsafe and put us in survival mode, was not something we are to blame for. We are not responsible for carrying the blame or a burden for something we didn’t ask for.

From personal experience, it became a habit to want to control how others saw me. This means that I had trouble saying no and I’d agree to things that didn’t particularly sit well with me. I became a people-pleaser and it was so easy to mesh myself into a person who didn’t reflect who I am authenticity. This type of behaviour is rooted in my childhood and during the time I was embedded in the idea of being a people-pleaser without being aware of doing it until I hopped on the train to trauma healing.

We don’t realise how much trauma creates and embed itself to all areas of our life; mainly in our personality and how we view ourselves. I’m someone who was spiritually awakened because of the path I went on. It wasn’t psychedelics that ‘woke’ me up, it was my pain and my trauma. Those two aspects of myself that I repressed and buried have been one of the most empowering and the precipice of my spiritual awakening.

Many people who jump into trauma healing find a sense of purpose underneath all the trauma that was covering their identity. It’s because, as we suppressed our pain, hurt and traumas we all so suppressed aspects of our self. That’s what trauma does, it chips away fragments of our self until we don’t recognise our self or feel lost in a world that ones were so familiar.

There is one particular thing I have found that is similar to trauma healing and spirituality, it gets us to jump into the unknown. The unknown of who we are outside of our trauma and the trauma response we labelled as our ‘personality’. The unknown of living a life lead by our higher self, soul and intuition.

Living a life that is lead by our soul and higher self is not as easy as it sounds or looks. It takes time and works to learn how to use our intuition, with that comes practising it and taking actions that may look random or ‘out character’ for those around us; although it’s because when we lead and move base on our intuition and the guidance of our higher self it’s not for everyone to understand nor is it their business, it’s’ for us to learn to trust and have faith in our self.

Having faith and trust in our self is not as easy as it might sound although this is where healing comes in. I believe that we have to heal certain aspects of our self and reclaim fragments of our self before jumping into all the metaphysics and spiritual theories.

Spirit In The Human Mind:

For us to learn to trust our self, we have to learn the reason why we don’t trust our self in the first place. We then unpack them and dismantle them so we can reconstruct them from a place of security and stability. That’s what healing is and using the tools of compassion, empathy, kindness, forgiveness and love. Without those tools, we won’t be able to recreate a foundation that is stable and secure. The intention should be that when we reconstruct a foundation it has to be stable and secure, so we don’t have to dismantle each time something goes wrong in our infrastructure.

That is why I believe healing is part of spirituality. We can't live a life that is lead by our soul/higher self if we can't tap into those aspects of our self and are holding on to self-limiting beliefs and narratives.

[Writing piece going in-depth of Learning To Trust One Self]

There is this concept within the spiritual community that we choose where we are born, our body and our situations etc. In some sense yes, although the way our psyche is constructed within this human body and mind, we forget that we intend to push things to the subconscious for our consciousness to make room for new information.

When we are carrying internalized and unconscious patterning, conditioning, beliefs and behaviours etc. and then tell our self that "we choose this life, we chose these experiences", there is a part of us that feels rejected and will continue to internalize the shame, judgment or rejection we are not even aware of.

This is where Shadow Work comes into play. [Writing piece going in-depth about Shadow Self and Work].

The deep-rooted reasons on why we don’t trust our self, intuition and the suppression of our higher self are located in our subconscious; shadow work is the type of inner work that assist us into looking deeper within our self.

It’s hard and uncomfortable to dive deep within our self as it’s something we might be family with, although when having the desire to live a life lead by our soul and higher self, it’s a must. The rewards of being comfortable and at peace with our self is a reward we can not buy anywhere else and it’s not a reward someone can give to us. It’s a reward only an individual can seek within themselves.

Inner Work And Letting Go:

Spiritual awakening is not just about mediation, crystals, sages, spiritual retreats and psychedelics, it's having to unlearn and strip our self from who we are not and then learn we truly are. The being able to practise those theories about our self in the way we move in our life. Having our beliefs and morals that we preach and tell our self which reflect our movement in life, as it's not just in theory any more.

It's challenging because we have to let go of a lot of control when we begin to live a life soul lead and having to trust our self that we will make the right decision. The thing is I believe we always make the right choices in a sense because in the moment of choosing we tend to not know the outcome or the consequences (if it’s a new option of choice or circumstances). That is why having faith in our self is need when we follow the guidance of our higher self.

When we feel hesitate, it’s having to unpack the reasons why we feel this way. Why we can’t seem to surrender and it’s finding the root cause. As we find the root cause it’s important to know that this process has its process in its self. That we are required to learn to let go during this process of unpacking and be open to the idea that we do not know everything.

The biggest challenge we as the collective are going through is taking a leap and trusting our self. We cannot trust our self if we are holding onto old wounds and ignore them. Trusting our self is an inside job and it’s a job that reaps its rewards when we begin learning to do so.

A lot of things within spirituality and trauma healing is about letting go of control, the past, our outdated behaviours, habits, narratives, self-limiting beliefs, old versions of our self, people and environments that no longer align with who are.

When we sit back and think about it, we actually don’t have a lot of control of many things, although looking around we still did alright. We still manage to get up every day and continue with our lives.

It’s grounding our self in gratitude rather than the things we can not control. Learning to shift our focus and energy to the things we can control gets easier as we continue to practise and learn to trust our self. -

Just like any type of habit it takes time, work, effort and practise till it becomes effortless. Just because we fall back to old habits does not make us a failure, we only fail if we stop trying.

Continue with the inner work and learning to be compassionate, kind, empathic, forgiving and loving towards our self. Reconstructing a whole infrastructure and foundation isn’t an overnight job. Be patience and be open to learning.

Be Kinder, Less Critical.

Unpacking Our Internal Affairs

Topics: Looking Within, Narrative and Beliefs about Ourself, Death of the Ego, Social Conditioning on Higher Levels of Consciousness.

The truth is no one is going to save us from our own internal struggles. That it doesn’t matter how much we depend or put expectations on others about wanting them to heal those as aspects of our self. We were given free will so we could choose the path and the way of our living. God, the Creator, The Universe, the Divine, however, we label the higher consciousness it doesn’t change the fact that we were given free will. - There are entities and other types of consciousness that do not have the best interest of humanity. That they would rather see us give up our freedom with our free will by creating illusions that we have none in the first place. - The war that is occurring within our society today is not with our physical body but with our consciousness. This war has been occurring for many centuries and each time these entities reincarnate on Earth their consciousness also evolves.

We have many things that are not in our control. Such as how our society has been running or constructed. Many of us don’t see how our own programming and conditioning have affected us. That we are not attuned with our intuition due to our own internal battles and struggles. - This war occurring is not about fighting one another. It is breaking out of a mental prison that has no visible cage or bars. Instead, those bars and cages are our self-limiting beliefs, negative thinking patterns, self-sabotaging behaviours, our codependency, narcissistic traits, the lack of faith in ourself and the distorted views of the higher levels of consciousness ie. God. -

Before we should focus on reconnecting with the higher consciousness, we have to reconnect with our own higher consciousness, which is also known as our Higher Self. Each and one of us have this aspect within us. It’s just having to find it underneath all the social, family conditioning and our self-limiting beliefs. It’s healing and reclaiming fragments of our self that we have abandoned due to wanting to accept. When we begin to heal and reclaim fragments of ourself we will begin to see that we are our own hero. - That we were the only person that could have healed those internal struggles. We go along the journey and path so we gain a level of experiences that teaches us aspects of our self. Which are reflected back to us by the people we have invited into our life. Each and one of us are reflecting fragments of our self. Whether we view it as ‘toxic’, ‘negative’, ‘positive’, or ‘beautiful’ those fragments that stand out to us from others are the fragments that we need to find within our self. There is a reason why certain traits or behaviours get us sucked in or drawn in.

Observing how we react towards those traits or behaviours is going to tells us which direction we need to go within. If we were triggered it is most likely that we have to do Shadow Work or if we begin to doubt our self then maybe there is a need to learn self-love and care. With our free will, we can choose to look within and find the root cause of that attraction.

There is a reason why only an individual can heal their internal struggles. That is because only that individual knows what they’ve been through. - With going within there are tools we need to take such as honesty, compassion, open-mindedness, empathy and accountability. Along the way of going within, we will find other tools that we learn during the earlier stages. As each process and cycle, we go through are needed so we can learn or overcome certain circumstances to have a better understanding of our self or a situation. - It’s taking the lessons as valuable gold, as those gold are the key to ascending our consciousness.

With looking within there is not only learning but also unlearning. We get taught certain beliefs or conditioning either about our self, life or how the world works. Those beliefs and conditioning are not always an alignment with who we truly are. - Such as the idea of masculinity and femininity. We were conditioned that each of them was something that was based on our gender or the way we act. Femininity has been suppressed within our society and has attachments that come with that term. So does the term masculinity. When we view both the term in the form of energy and frequency we will come to see that we can hold both of those within our self. Which we do. The definition for both of them is different from what we have been conditioned to think. Feminine energy is simply our intuition, the part of us who are open to receiving from outside of our self, embracing stillness and whereas masculine energy is in the sense the ‘doing’ part, where we use our energy to take actions on what our intuitive messages we have been getting to cultivate those in psychical form. We both need energies to work with one another. We might not even be consciously aware that we are using both. We might perceive that we are only using one because of the definition we hold with both of the terms. - There are other things we need to unlearn during the process of healing, ascension and initially stepping into our power.

Each and one of us hold certain beliefs and narrative about ourself that affect the way we move in life. It’s initially our blueprints on who we are, what we deserve, what we should move toward. Those same blueprints dictate what path to take. When our blueprints are base on lacks, either from a lack of self-love, worth, trust, faith etc. those same lacks are what we are going to settle for. Meaning that when we hold such a negative perception of ourself we will settle in relationships, career, path or life in general. - The narrative we hold and tell our self every day have also shaped those blueprints. That same narratives are what we have cultivated from a young age. What our parents, peers and authority figures have told us about our self. Which are just projection of their own self-limiting beliefs and judgements. The narratives we tell our self are not always conscious; some of them are tucked away within our subconscious and we might not even be aware that we are following them.

There is a process that we go through with healing and going within. This process of finding and becoming aware of our own narratives and beliefs comes with that. With looking within, there is a portion we need to let go of control of. Meaning that not all of our healing can be done when we want it too and not all the fragments that we want to see can be seen. There are a process and timing which we do not control. - Personally, for me I found it ironic, that going through a process of learning control of my own emotions to only realise that I then needed to let go of that sense of control. Which I believe is needed, because it puts us in the process of ‘The Death of the Ego’.

Our Ego is part of our psyche, it’s something we can not ‘kill’ or ‘get rid off’. It’s the part where we learn to humble it down. Meaning reconstructing our position in society. When we are triggered by being awakened, we realise how we are all connected. That each and one of us are just having our own reality and experiences. That’s why we reflect fragments of our self with one another because we are all the same ball of energy. - The way our society has been conditioned and constructed it creates this idea of superiority. That we are better than others if we hold certain status within our society or even relationships. That superiority is attached to material possessions. That we get conditioned to believe that we are nothing but our human body and that once we die all parts of our self are gone. What occurs after our death is something nobody holds hardcore evidence on. It’s just one of those things we know that will occur one day, as life and death are the polarities of a new beginning. -

Our Ego is constructed and conditioned to believe that our value and worth are attached to worldly possessions such as the type of career we hold in society, the relationships we have, the qualifications or the amount of money we hold. When we begin to believe and create a narrative that we are superior to others because of those things we are operating from a place of unawakened Ego. Where we begin to seek out more worldly possessions or chase a certain status to feel worthy or valuable within our self and society.

Our Ego is part of the first layer of our psyche which is our consciousness. That part we can tap into with no problem. The term ‘Death of the Ego’ is a metaphoric experience. As all our transformations and process we go through, there is a sense of death within each and one of them. As we ascend and evolve our consciousness a part of our self dies along when ascending. When someone dies we do not judge them, we simply create a celebration and a time to grieve their time on Earth. That is what we need to do as well when certain fragments of our self are not coming along in evolution.

There are many layers within everyone's internal struggles. We genuinely are the best and biggest expert on our self. We always believe that someone else is going to rescue us from our internal struggles when we are younger only realising that we are the one who comes to rescue ourself. When we offer a shoulder to cry for someone, a compassionate space or just an ear to listen we need to be able to give those aspects to ours elf too. Deep down we have parts of our self that crave to be heard and seen by us, which is rooted within our Inner Child. It’s about offering those aspects to our self as well as others around us. We can choose to take action toward learning to love and be our own saviour. We have free will for a reason. We have that sense of freedom of choice. - Looking within comes with healing not just our self but also the faith in the higher consciousness. Healing is a process and not a destination. I believe there is no ending to healing. We just begin to reconstruct the definition and the term healing as we go along our journey.

We live in a society that uses religion as a way to control the mass population. It also has created divisions between humanity. That we have ranked religious intuition with one another. Where many people operate from their Ego feeling as their religious belief makes them superior to others. - Religion brings a sense of community and belonging. That’s why many people turn towards that direction. There is a polarity that comes with religion, the light and the shadow.

I personally do not agree with any type of institutions that oppress certain groups of people because they do not fit in with their constructed beliefs. When people use God as an excuse as a justification for abuse or horrific crimes, it creates this distortion within the higher levels of consciousness. When people use God as a way to judge others (example) for their sexual orientation or their preference in romantic partners, it creates a division and separation within humanity. These types of judgements and justifications are just small examples of how people manipulate the view on God. It gets us to lack faith in something higher and bigger than us. - It doesn't matter how we label God, we can call it the Universe, the Creator or the Divine. Either way, it’s a Higher Consciousness that we can not even grasp the full concept due to our ‘human mind’. In the higher levels of consciousness there are no labels, as we are all one and connected with the Universe, the Source, the Creator, God.

When going within we need to heal and unpack our belief systems within the higher levels of consciousness that are outside of our self. It’s about seeing why we hold certain beliefs on ie. God and where did they come from? We can label it however we feel comfortable. What is important is that we have to heal and reclaim that part of divinity that is connected to a much higher level of consciousness. It’s about replugging our self to that Source of energy and unhooking our self from the social conditioning of God. - The views on Heaven and Hell are distorted. I don’t see why we couldn’t experience both here on Earth. As we know many people experience Hell. Where they are going through a circumstance every day that makes them feel as they are in Hell or dying. The term Heaven is different for everyone. Not everyone has the same view of what Heaven looks and feels like to them. - Like I’ve stated nobody knows what happens when we die, there is no hardcore evidence on it.

There has been an illusion that has been cast on Earth that this place resembles Hell. - The reason why we ascend our consciousness and reclaim fragments of our self is a way to reclaim the divinity on Earth. Like I’ve stated at the beginning of this piece. There are entities and other consciousnesses that no do have the best interest in humanity. That they will cast illusions and distorted views to fuel their own agendas. - Healing, ascending and reclaiming fragments of our self is a way to reclaim our soul. It’s a way to live out our authenticity and our purpose here on Earth.

Many walk around not knowing their true purpose and they blindly follow the constructed programming that we are given within our social conditioning. When we heal, ascend and reclaim we also receive those aspects of our self. The reason why we are here on Earth, (which is much bigger than us) is to reclaim the divinity that we were all supposed to live by. The war we are fighting is a spiritual one and it’s attacking our divinity and wanting us to abandon our self.

It’s time to reclaim ALL fragments of our self rather than abandoning them. Our authentic and true self is underneath all the social and family conditioning. It’s just digging within our self to find that version and live it out. We all hold such power of greatness, beauty and love within each and one of us. It’s just learning to have faith in our self and trust that the efforts we put into learning to unconditionally love our self and others are being seen. - What we put out into the universe comes back to us, in some shape or form. Begin by embracing ALL fragments of our self, from our emotions, past, present and the fragments we have abandoned.

Sometimes we have to tear everything down about ourself and everything else around us in order to rebuild a more secure and stable foundation that will stand across time. Not all new beginnings are external, some happened within before our external world can catch up.

I believe it is never too late to heal, ascend, reclaim fragments of ourself, go after what we desire or change. - It’s just a matter of choice.

BE KINDER, LESS CRITICAL

Ascending From the conscious to the Unconscious to Collective Consciously

Our psyche is divided into three parts which are the Conscious (C), Subconscious (SC) and the Collective Unconscious (CUC). 

We know that the Subconscious is the part of our psyche that we have no control over and very limited access. The CUC is the part where we realise we are all connected and that we all one. Just a giant ball of energy and within that giant ball each individuals having their own experience on Earth. To be able to access the CUC we have to be able to unpack and get through our SC. In our SC lays our deepest wounds and circumstance, events or experiences we have suppressed. Those circumstances, events and experiences have their own attachments of emotions, which is why many of us decide not to unpack our SC. 

Once we unpack and reconstruct our SC we are able to tap into the CUC. This is why people choose to do so as this is the part where we have our awakening to oneself of our experiences. 

The structure of the concept of the human psyche is much deeper than the Conscious, Subconscious and the Collective Unconscious. Carl Jung, a famous and well-known psychoanalyst and psychiatrist have studied and theories the concept of the human psyche. His theories and studies to this day are used to understand our human psyche. By educating ourself about the human psyche and it’s a way of working on understanding our own.

Our psyche is an amazing system within our body. Not only can it tap into the material world it can also tap into the spiritual world. Where many believe does not exist. There are many theories we can come up with in regards to where our Consciousness goes, after our death. Although there is no hardcore evidence on this. We were given a free will for a reason, we were put in certain family dynamics and bodies for a reason. There are lessons we need to overcome in regards to the uncontrollable positioning we are in. As those lessons help us evolve and grow our consciousness which brings in the puzzle pieces missing within our picture. Which is funny enough, a smaller part of the Big Picture or the Cosmo. - 

This is why I preach healing and why I believe it is part of ascension. We have all gone through certain circumstances that have wounded us in some way. Those circumstances we had no control over. It’s put us in a position to heal ourself or repress it. It’s not about reliving those moments, it’s understanding that certain things in the world we have no control over. That whatever the past circumstances were something we aren’t meant to carry the burden off for the rest of our lives. It’s teaching us to let go and before we can let go we have to be able to acknowledge that it is there. 

We can go our entire lives ignoring and denying parts of ourselves. Although by doing this we are not living to the fullest capacity we came here to do. Underneath the wounds, hurt or pain is a light. A light that will help us shine through the deepest and darkest parts of ourself. From personal experience, underneath my traumas was the light of resilient, courage, strength, bravery and beauty. 

It’s having to acknowledge all those hurt, wounds and pain before we can see those ball of light. Acknowledging also come with its own light which is compassion, understanding, empathy and forgiveness. Everything has its own light and SO DO WE!

We have to embrace the light beforehand. We have to see our own beauty and learn that we are more than our physical bodies. That this lifetime might have not been our first. Having an open mind and letting go of our Ego.

Letting our Higher Self live in a time where we are being baited out to live under fear, illusions and destruction. 

The term ‘human experience’ includes our emotions, our experiences, our past, present and future. Included the bad, good, the ugly and the beauty. It’s about embracing them all and learning that we are multidimensional beings that decided to evolve our consciousness and soul/spirit. Being open to the idea that there is more to life than the physical and the material world lets go of the concept of endings. That we are not meant to stay in a certain form forever. That we are constantly changing, evolving and growing whether we are consciously aware of this or not. 

Spirituality is about embracing this concept and connecting to our Higher Self. It’s not about dressing, eating or behaving a certain way. As everyone’s spirit is very different and uniquely made. Just because we are all connected from the same ball of energy does not mean we are all the same. We might have similarities although never the same. It’s embracing the uniqueness and difference we have. It’s about experiencing the human realm in the full scope of it all. We can not experience the full scope of the human experience if we are living under illusions.

The term ‘woke’ and the idea of spirituality has become mainstream. Everyone sees a level of corruption, distractions, illusions and egotistical mindsets within the people in power. Those things are something we can not hide. They exist and as more people awaken to these illusions we begin to see the lies we all live in. 

The real question is not ‘are you woke?’. The REAL question is ‘are you awaken and aware of your OWN illusions, you live out?’

That’s why healing is a must during ascension. We can not ascend to a higher level of consciousness if we are living out illusions within our inner world. We can lie and denial to ourself although we are only creating illusions. Which blocks us from our own blessings and greatness, making us our own worst enemy.  Again, we have a free will a reason. We can choose to be ignorant or choose to turn the light on. - With our chooses comes with actions and those actions have consequences and outcomes. 

Remind ourself that we have no control over others. That others prefer the company of misery as that energy is much more comfortable and familiar to them. - Do not drain or deplete our own energy when trying to change others. As those are not something we can control or should want to. - We are given free will for a reason. We have a choice between ignorance or the truth.

From the movie The Matrix

BE KINDER, LESS CRITICAL

TAKING A LEAP TO NOT LIVING IN REGRET

In the tarot deck, there is a major arcana called 'The Fool'. This card depicted a man jumping off a cliff who is smiling and willing to do so. That is because the man on the card has faith. The faith that if he were to take a leap towards his desires, he will find that the Divine will be working with him along his journey. A fool only becomes a fool if they have no faith. 

This description is the mindset we have to shift to. We have to have faith that things will work out in our favour. We deserve success, happiness, joy and contentment and to feel optimistic about life. We deserve it.

Taking a leap of faith is not always easy. It comes with anxiety, self-doubt and the thought of uncertainty and the unknown is uncomfortable. Although that is where we gain a level of courage and bravery, from embarking on actions that were attached with anxiety and self-doubt. Instead of letting those run and dictate our actions. We stare it right in the eye and jump to our desired action. 

It doesn't matter how it looks from the outside because we know deep within us that the actions we took had devil energy attached to them. Those energies that stopped us before and not embarking on something new because of fear. Which then we later regret not taking those actions. We can let fear run our lives. We can not let fear stop us from living the life we deserve.  Our visions are something not everyone will understand but it's okay, as long as WE understand them, see them, feel it and believe that it is ours!

Hard work always pays off. Working hard isn't what we have been conditioned in. It's not about burning our self out and constantly moving. It is also about taking a rest and sitting with our mind. So we are able to recoup and reflect back on the actions we have taken. During that period we can observe what is working and what isn't. Whether we have to take a different approach or continue what we are doing as it's working out for us. 

Rest is an important part when we embark on our passion or any projects we start. We can not burn our self out and be on the move constantly as it's not healthy for body, mind and soul. Those three aspects of our inner being are needed in union and need to be acknowledged. The three aspects need to be healthy to be able to in union. We can not neglect one or another. As one dims down the rest follows, like a domino effect. 

PERSONAL EXPERIENCE WITH BALANCING THE MIND AND HEART into LEAPING:

A lesson I'm coming to terms with is the need to let go of not just in the context of relationships but also an environment, phase or anything in our life that is no longer compatible or serving our highest good. Meaning that there is an imbalance between the two. It doesn't mean the love isn't there, it just not meant to be and it's not meant to stay in our life. It only came to teach as a lesson and help us ascend to the next phase of our life. 

In the context of relationships letting someone go when we desperately want to be in union with them can be hard. We have this little optimism and faith that it'll happen. Which I believe is normal, having optimism and faith for anything is a must. Especially when we do not know the outcome of the situation. 

Taking a leap of faith into proceeding and listening to our heart is okay. It's actually a way that we live with no regret. When we finally stop listening to all the logical things of the what-if and the list of reasons why it doesn't make sense or it wouldn't work. We then begin to listen to our heart and what our soul is yearning for. Emotions are a way of our soul communicating with us. Some emotions don't make sense and we're not even sure how one arise, especially if it’s in the context of loving someone. Although there is this feeling we can not shake off, no matter how long that list of the logical reasons not to proceed might be. 

This is when there is this imbalance of the mind and the heart. It’s usually a blueprint and programming that we are either following consciously or unconsciously due to the attachments of fear, self-doubt or lack of self-belief in oneself. 

Personally, for me, I have self-doubts, fear and attachments that come with wanting to control an outcome. Because I believe that when we have a sense of control over something there is comfort and power that comes with it. 
If we were able to control the outcome in any situation we took a leap of on, everyone would go after what they really desired. 
Although that's not the case with life. The magic is in the actions we embark in when taking those leaps of faith. When we finally listen to what we really desire and stop lying to ourself, we live a life with no regret. Instead, we live a life of honesty and optimism. The magic of the Unknown and the part where we gain a level of growth and fragments of our soul from the actions we took. A level of self-confidence and surety because we trusted ourself. 

I personally recently took a leap of faith and listened to my heart. Instead of listing a bunch of reason why I shouldn't. I made myself known to someone who I'm interested in. Something I've found is that it's frightening to be that vulnerable and expose ourself to someone, but also to court someone. Courting someone is the beginning stages of wanting to know someone. Although they have to want to be courted or else it's just one-sided. Those types of relationships aren't long-lasting and draining. With me taking a leap of faith into reconnecting with someone, it left no room for what-ifs because I know I tried and went for it. Just because it wasn't reciprocated, doesn't mean I lack anything. It's just not meant to be, it is what it is. 

From personal experience, we try to make sense of why we feel the way we do about someone. We can mull it over in our mind and list the reasons why it wouldn't work or why it didn't work. When we begin to listen to what our heart and soul has been telling us and when we take that leap of faith in putting ourself out there; keep doing that. Because that's how we know that we are not going to live a life of regret. We went and listen to what our soul was telling us without knowing the outcome. We trusted ourself enough to be brave and go after what we wanted. Living a life of no regret and no what-ifs. 

Even though it's scary and uncomfortable putting ourself out there in any situation. We can not let fear run our lives and dictate what actions to take. Without fear we never gain courage. What changes the fear into courage is the action(s) we take towards that fear of ours. Just understand that our fear shouldn't stop us from achieving and going after what we truly desire in life. 

In the context of putting ourself our there to a romantic interest; when our feeling does not get reciprocated it, don't ever let that stop us from expressing ourself and embracing love. Just because someone can not see the amount of love we can give or our worth doesn't make us 'unlovable' nor are we not going to attract someone with the same passion and desire we have. What we put out to the Universe ALWAYS comes back to us. 

Rejection is sometimes protection, either from going off our path, experiencing a love that would throw us off our course and divine journey. Either way, whatever the protection might be, we are not going to fully see it clearly until one day unexpectedly we stumble upon someone or an opportunity that will clarify why certain things didn't work out in the past.

I do believe in faith and we do stumble upon destined and fated events along our journey. - You know those moments and experiences where we are just at the right time and place? When see witness something incredible like staying a little longer at the beach and we witness the most beautiful sunset. Or when we are out and about and we witness nature doing its thing. With animals in their natural habit and its a moment, we weren't able to capture on our phone. Although that feeling attached to that experience lives on within is. 

Those little things that create a huge ripple in our life. As we give out the energy of gratitude and appreciation for what nature can do (such as sunsets). 

That same energy we give out; we'll receive back in some shape or form. Through energy, vibration and frequency are the Universes language, a language each and one of us are attuned to.

If we haven't worked a connection with the Divine, God, Universe or whatever label we put on the higher realms of the consciousness; at least give that faith to ourself. Feel, see and believe that whatever we are working towards is going to work out in our favour. Remove giving up as an option because it never will be one, only if we make it one. 

The journey towards our desire is going to have up and down, doubts, challenges, optimism and success. Don't doubt our journey, it is never about the destination. It has always been about the journey.

BE KINDER, LESS CRITICAL

HUMMINGBIRD

ASCENSION

 Topics: Alignment, Inner Work, Healing, Breaking Cycles, Shadow Self and Work, The Ego, Death of The Ego, The Collective Healing, Blessings in Disguise.  

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My decision to embark into healing put me on a spiritual path. It was very unexpected. I didn’t realise it would take me in this direction, down a rabbit hole. For me, I love history and conspiracy theories. It began with watching documentaries about the mainstream history which then lead me to learn about the ancient civilisation and just down the rabbit hole of the other side of history. A side that it is not taught within the education system. 

I started with the fascination about the importance of cats within the ancient Egyptian, which then took me to the Pyramid of Giza to the malefic statues in Easter Island, then to Peru and then to the temples in Jordan. Those sights and tourist attractions caught my eyes and especially the Pyramid of Giza. When I dug deep and researched into the Pyramid I came across mind-blowing facts about it. The position and the structure of the Pyramid was something out of this world. The precision of the cut stones and the alignment it had with the stars and the sky. The exact measurement of true north and knowledge that the ancients had that the education system did not teach us. 

Alignment is important within the ascension journey. We are not aligned at first as the condition we live in. The ways our society has been structured is on purpose, the generations on Earth now have been conditioned in a way that we have to unlearn and reconstruct our own belief systems. Which will align us to our true purpose and with the stars just like the Pyramid of Giza. Maybe we are not supposed to know how that amazing monument was built, what matters is what it symbolises which is the perfect alignment and relation it has with the Universal law. - Believes it or not numbers are one way of how the Universe communicates with us. Not the way math has been taught within our educational system. But the basic math from 0-9, it is called Numerology. Each number has a different meaning that coincides and gives us guidance on what we should focus on in re-aligning with our authentic self. A certain combination of number and the way we perceive it can give us a boost of encouragement that is from our spiritual team. 

With alignment comes with doing the inner work, and what that means is going within. - Letting go of old belief systems that are tethered from the past which disturbs and stops us living our authentic self. Re-constructing our mindset and blueprints from our past conditioning is very important. When looking within, we begin to see some of those blueprints and programming that we have adopted throughout our life. Those same blueprints and programming we have been unconsciously following. In certain stages of our life, those same blueprints and programming have helped us, either to survive and get by or get some level of acceptance and validation. Those blueprints and programming are not something to shame or judge... During the process of going within, we have to let go of shame and judgement. We can not shame and judge ourself for our past behaviours as those same behaviours has lessons embedded within them. In those lessons, we can gain growth and a level of awareness we might not have had access to if we didn’t experience certain things or partake in a behaviour. 

Healing our past traumas and wounds that might still be bleeding out on to others and ourself, is important during our ascension journey. With healing our wounds and hurts we are breaking intergenerational traumas that have been past down through parental teaching. The way our parents were brought up which then altered and conditioned them in the ways of how we have been brought up. It is a cycle that our bloodline has gone through. A cycle that not many will be aware of or they are on. When we realise that we are on a cycle (example) of seeking out validation and acceptance from others; a sign of codependency. We begin to see our condition patterning and programs we have adapted from our upbringing. We also see how our parents’ upbringing influenced their way of parenting, giving us no room to blame and hate on the way we have been brought up. When we see that their way of teaching has influenced a level of independence and growth for us, we remove resentment. That our parents also broke certain cycles that build a foundation for us breaking more cycles. It is about not forgetting that our parents also have put in work to shine a certain way. It might not be a way that resonates within us, although it is their way. Holding that compassion not just for us but for them also for breaking cycles, that helped and guided us to break more on our own.

When we break these cycles of (example) co-dependency not only are we setting a new level of standards for ourself, we are also creating a new foundation for the future bloodline. That will benefit future generations, where they will no longer seek out validation and acceptance outside of themselves. Having that in mind when we breaking cycles is important, we are not the only ones who will benefit from cycle being broken. We are the catalyst for something so much bigger than us. 

Breaking cycles is a very heavy process as we are not only breaking a patterning that our recent generation has endured but a cycle that has been repeated throughout many generations of the bloodline. Having to break years of patterning can be daunting as those around us who still follow the same old patterning can see this as a ‘threat’ or a ‘dysfunction’. Not on their wellbeing but for their Ego. Our Ego is the part of our psyche that the Monks also calls as ‘the monkey brain’. Our Ego is constructed and developed throughout our upbring and conditioning. We all know our society is built from a patriarchy viewpoint. Where there is a hierarchy that ranks us from ‘highest’ to ‘lowest’. Oppressing certain groups because it created a way of dividing us. As if we are not connected, casting an illusion of separation. 

Our Ego also creates narratives that influence our wellbeing and how we move in the world. When we have unhealed parts of ourself our Ego can disguise itself as ‘our self’. Meaning we begin to believe that we are only our Ego. That ‘thinking’ in our mind is us and the narrative that we tell ourself every day is who we really are. Those same narratives that we might not even realise we have been following. Those narratives of (example) being not worthy of success or being loved so we end up settling. Those narratives we have been telling ourself for years that it has become our programming and blueprints, that influences how we move in the world. Those same narratives our Ego feeds on. Our Ego isn’t separated from us, as our Ego is part of us. It’s just how it’s been conditioned and programmed. During our ascension journey, we come to a point called ‘the death of the Ego’. This part is very important and needed. It is metaphorically speaking and symbolises the reconstructing and rebuilding our foundations; that isn’t set on putting ourself higher than others and letting go of the structure of competing with one another. We begin to see that life isn’t a competition. That our mindset and ‘personality’ are very flexible and continuously changes. Accepting these concepts makes the ‘death’ process much less of a fight and not as hard to detach from. - That advice that many of us get told when we get caught in a rip current which is, not fighting it and staying calm. As fighting, it will cause more energy and will likely leave us no energy to swim horizontally away from the current. -

The death of our Ego is part of the ascension journey. I was told that animals fear us because of our Ego. They can sense the level of Ego some might have. When we detach from our Ego and become one with the EcoSystem, we will notice that animals tend to come closer to us. We can energetically and telepathically connect with them, similar to our pets. Where we know when they are hungry or need to go out in the yard to go toilet; it is that inner knowing.

Spirituality has become a mainstream trend. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be attuned with our spirituality. Although there is a bypass of the shadow aspect. Where many only promote and believe in love and light. Which is true, we do have those aspects within us. Although we also have a shadow aspect. When we deny a part of ourself we begin to accumulate those denial parts as toxic behaviours. Either by being passive-aggressive, being triggered when others do voice about the shadow aspect or see those repressed parts of ourself being reflected onto us. The most important part of ascension is the shadow work. All the repressed parts of ourself that we’ve hidden, ignored and denied. Doing our shadow work comes with the inner work. We begin to see our own toxic behaviours and begin to move forward into changing them. Change comes with ascension. We realize that without change and discomfort there is no growth and evolving. One of those changes is seeing our shadow self. Not only seeing but accepting those parts of ourself. - I have written many pieces about shadow work and healing. I believe in this work. I do believe that this type of work is essential in our ascension journey. - It is also a way to dismantle our Ego. Not everyone is the problem, something it is us. With our free will we decide for ourself to seek the change to end the problem and if not we continue to live in a life full of illusion and denial.   

The term ‘woke’ is a surface level label of awakening. We might be aware of all the illusions and mind-controlling games big corporations, mainstream media or ‘the big players’ are doing. Although the real question is are WE aware of our OWN illusions and control mentality that we have adapted from our conditioning. Those illusions and mind games have affected us and our psyche in some way or form. Part of ascension and awakening is being able to unlearn and remove ourself from those programming. To create our own programming that aligns with our true authentic self, the morals and values we follow. 

Many might denial this part of themselves, although each and one of us have and are living some sort of illusion. - The illusions of ‘self-love’ where we preach loving other women and ourself when in reality we can be vindictive once our expectations are not met. Not accepting our shadow aspect is living under the illusions that we only have light and love with us. When we are the dark and light, just like Yin and Yang. We have feminine and masculine energy, inner shadow and inner angel. Where we have the inner child and the Ego. We have the polarity with these experiences. Having to let go of the idea that we can not embrace more than one of our aspects of self is an illusion. We are multidimensional beings that can feel so many things at once. It is about being open to that idea as well. Not punishing ourself for feeling and being a million things at once. 

We live in a world where we are conditioned to compete and let go of parts of our authentic self. Where the real gain or sacrifice isn’t a gold medal or a huge lump of cash but the price we receive is an abandonment of our soul. 

Ways of selling our soul are very simple and don’t have to be so ritualistic. It could be simply as agreed to do something that does not align with the morals, values and beliefs. That is one way of selling our soul. - This term ‘selling our soul’ comes in a range of the spectrum. The definition is simply when we do not stay aligned with our authentic self. Where we accumulate abundance by casting illusions within us or others. Where we believe that if we go into a certain revenue of work we gain a higher level of abundance because it’s ‘in the down-low’. Or working for an organization or corporation that contradicts our authentic self and values, where we are not passionate about the work we do and leaving us drained each day after it. Being around groups of people who oppress and diminish our light because they are unaware of theirs. We then dim our light down for their comfort leaving us not to experience our own magic. Those environments are soul-crushing and chip away parts of our soul.   

We can retrieve back our soul fragments when we do our inner work. Accepting and embracing ALL parts of ourself; the ego, inner child, the feminine and masculine energy, the inner shadow and our inner angel. 

We can not be in alignment when we do not do the inner work. It’s us casting an illusion within ourself that we are in alignment. When in reality we aren’t. One way to know if we are in alignment is how easily we deal with issues and uncontrollable circumstances. How light we feel with all the chaos going on. Because with everything going on we know there is a purpose, a blessing in disguise. It’s just ‘***the tower moment’ that has happened within us playing out on a global scale. Many people all over the world have been doing the inner work and embracing their authentic self. - Everything that is being revealed and all the illusions that have been playing out must happen and have its own tower moments. Each and one of them must come down, so we as a collective can rebuild and create from a more authentic and transparent place that will reflect all the inner work we have done within. 

The inner work we do isn’t just for us nor does it only benefit us and our bloodline. It benefits the WHOLE COLLECTIVE. When we first awaken we realise we are all one and we are all connected in some form or shape. That the people we meet have and are our reflection in some way. They reflect either the inner child, our feminine and masculine energy, our inner shadow, our inner angel, our ego or the unhealed parts ourself. We get to see all parts of ourself play out in front of us and that is the same with others around us.

We also have multiple awakenings as there is never a time where we do not learn new information either about our external environment or about ourself. That is what life is really about is constant learning of oneself. When we see the beauty in others it’s a reflection of our own inner beauty that we might not be aware of, just yet. Some with the ‘toxicity’ we see on others, those parts we have within us. That is why we notice them. With our free will it is up to us to acknowledge BOTH parts and heal, accept, embrace, love etc. We were given free will for a reason. We have a choice to either face our WHOLE self or walk away from ourself. 

WE CHOOSE HOW WE PERCEIVE AND CREATE OUR REALITY WITH THE FREE WILL THAT IS GIVEN TO US; IT IS THERE FOR A REASON. 

*** The Tower is one of the major arcana in Tarot Deck which present a tower built in rocky foundations. Which ends up falling apart. This can be perceived in different ways. - Either way, it gives an opportunity to re-build a more solid foundation that will stand for a very long time. 

Be Kinder, Less Critical